rebellion

so lately i've started skating again. i don't own a board myself, so i've been borrowing a few different ones from some friends. really, i got into it last summer, and had quite large ambissions about becomming confident on the board. in the beginning, i truly sucked. i could hardly stand on the board when it wasn't moving. but after a while i got better. at least i thought i did. one day on our way to school, i was going to show my friend that i could stand on the board down an entire hill. i took his board, and got on it. at first i was doing fine, happliy unawear of what was going to happen. as i was going faster, the board started shaking, and i got scared. so i jumped off, this resulting in getting my head smashed in. my lip grew three times it's normal size, and my right eye was blue for about a month. i found this very scary, and it went through my mind for many months after. i desided never to skate ever again, and i was shure that i wasn't going to either. but lately i've been doing it, quite often. i think it has something to do with spring coming back, the dry roads, and the snow leaving the grass. and this time its different too. i've been practissing a lot. sometimes i've gone out in the middle of the night, just so no one would see me and how badly i suck. but now, i can actually ride down quite steap hills, without really beeing scared or loosing control. it's really a great feeling, cruising down, while listening to neil young or pink floyd. especially in the middle of the night. when noone is around, and you don't have to be scared that this pro skater kid is going to notice you, and make fun of you. and seeing as i live in such a small town, there are hardly any cars on the roads at night, so i can really skate at quite high speed(at least i think so), in the middle of the freeway without having to worry. i don't really know where i'm going with these words, but i guess i just needed to explain to myself(and whoever is reading this, if anyone) what a great feeling it is to skate down a hill when noone is around, with only the city lights to show you the way, while neil young is telling you how to feel.