cities

i've always thought that after finishing school here in my home town, i would move to a big city. i don't really know why this is, but i guess it's sort of a subconcious reaction to living in a small town your whole life. but as i think about it, i'm not really shure if i want to live in that kind of environment. i get that living in a city can be really great socially and lead to great new experiences and so on. but i just don't think i am the kind of person who would feel comfortable with such a lifestyle. i like beeing alone every now and then. i like taking walks and i like sitting in big fields smoking a cigarette and i like to go fishing at the dock and i like to go out skating late at night. i like silence. it's not like i'm a loner, i'm a quite social person, it's just that i like having the ability and the freedom to choose how to spend my day.i think i would enjoy living in a city for a while. if i went to school there and studied, that would probably be rewarding too. but i don't think i would be happy in the long run. it seems like everyone in every city i've been to is always busy. they are always on their way somewhere, or talking loudly on the phone with someone and so on. i don't think i would stand living in the middle of all that every day. in a place where houses are built up towards the sky instead of spread out to new areas, just so as many human beeings as possible can be put inside of the same geographic area. i don't see the point. the point in moving into a crowded, loud, busy place filled with people who never have time for anything, when you can choose not to? i would miss the ocean too much. the grass and the trees that are actually natural, and not planted by employees from the government. i would miss seeing mountains. i would miss the liberty of being able to take a walk alone in the middle of the night without having to worry about my own safety. that would be absurd to me, i think. being scared when walking home at night. i guess that not all cities are like this. i've been to many highly populated areas where i've seen a lot of beautiful things, met a lot of great people, cities that i have wanted to experience more of. i guess that where ever i choose to go it will be okay.