happiness

i just spent a whole week at the jazzfestival in molde. i'm left with so many good memories and experiences, it feels almost too good to be true. i met so many nice, funny and interesting people, and had so much fun with both old and new friends the whole time i was there. one night, during the process of drinking alcohol and after having witnessed an incredible concert with many of my best friends, i had a really interesting conversation with one of the guys that i met and hung out with and became good friends with during the week. we started talking about living in the now. i remember talking about how great the concert that we'd just been to was, and that we both felt really happy. still, we both agreed that it's very hard to live in the now. in the sence that, you only think about what you're doing right there and then, and you don't worry or think about what you are going to be doing next. i told him that i feel that often, even when i am having a really good time, and i am doing something that i see as a very positive and giving thing, i seem to be thinking about what i am going to do next, or what my friends might be up to somewhere else. he agreed with me, he felt the same way. this relieved me. still, we both agreed that we were having a fantastic time, and that we felt that we were truly happy. and that living in the now is something that is positive. it's just really hard when you think about doing it. that's why i think we came to the conclution that you are truly happy when you don't think about the fact that you are happy or that you want to become happy. you just are. and i was. we were.