friday, july 31th

lately i've had a lot of trouble sleeping. i sort of know why, but i don't feel like sharing it here, as it is sort of a personal matter. the reason i can't sleep is because i think about this personal matter almost all the time. escpecially when i'm not doing anything, when i'm alone. it sort of makes me want to just stop thinking at all, because it makes me really tired and sad. i get a really unconfortable feeling in my stomack, and it's hard to make it go away. even when i'm really having a good time with my friends, i always seem to keep it in the back of my mind. the fact that i can't do anything about this matter, makes it even worse. if there is anyone reading this, it must be hard to understand. i just hate it when bad things happen, things that you can't stop thinking about, that effect how you feel and how you act.